Desperate~

How long....

And since when...

I have believe that

there's always an eternity 

of true friendships

and true loves
the most realistic
and valuable feelings
towards the outsiders I've met

but when i have seen through this world

a very cruel cruel world

I've found that

there's actually 

no such 

silly 

& 

childish

answer
everyone has their own life

who else will share their parts for a person?

happiness are what they need

they will drain all your happiness away

and leave...

what can we do

we can only create ourself

fate

no one shall care for a poor person

only the person it self to not be poor

even though that i have seen a light

a bright little light

shines in a very dark space

it seems near to me

but i can never reach it

what's in my mind is

i hope one day I will reach it

and stop the lust that grow inside me

to be satisfied

but

I can feel it

the answer for reaching the lights

could be impossible

but i just couldn't give up

it hurts when my patient ran insane

i could have throw my guitar

i hate it when I couldn't reach my goal

I hate myself for being weak 

I just couldn't forgive 

that how I made everyone upset

I just want everyone to know

how useful i can be

how i can make everyone smiles

to fix everything 

becomes happy endings...

I should have know that

theres no time for me to rest

theres no time for me to upset

I just have to find a way

to solve this bundle

~Will the rain   
ever stop, I wonder?  
 For a pretty long time now   
it’s been cold
Why does the rain 
  choose me?  
 Why does it choose me   
who has nowhere to escape to?
Time intrudes 
  on the new morning  
 I finally found
The direction I face   
is not the future 
  I kept chasing after the past~
-songs from FMA - Rain - by SID